It has now been more than a month since I have posted on my blog. I have allowed myself to be pulled elsewhere, but have not been idle when it comes to creating. Instead, I have decided to dig into the work of creation in every sense of the word in which I can define it.
Last year was a really tough year for me. It tested me in many ways, and what came out of this testing was a deep knowing that I need to return to myself. As completely as I can. I don’t think I’m alone. These divisive times call us individually and collectively to come home to ourselves, and in the process find what unites us to the web-of-life we are all a part of.
For me, self care has taken the form of no more substitute teaching as the stress far outweighed the benefits for me. Being underpaid and undervalued is a life pattern I am striving to release. It’s not easy to navigate back into the paying workforce when one consumes so much time into childcare, but I would not have changed focusing on my children and now teenagers as they grow into their selves.
Instead, I am realizing what I now have to offer the world and am finding unexplored paths to bring my creative energies into existence. In my writing life, I am moving into the third book in my middle-grade Warriors of Light fantasy series while a group of beta readers are going through the second book. I have decided self-publishing is not for me, so am exploring the somewhat more daunting world of finding a traditional publisher for the series.
I am also writing more poetry, after a bit of a lapse. I have collected a group of spiritual “yoga” poems in a file that are simmering in prospects as I also delve into the shadowland of the self to create from the raw material of pain that seeks voice. They are braver poems then I am used to writing, but I find them necessary and healing. It feels good to be bold where I have previously held myself back.
This boldness includes breaking into the world of podcasts and I am happy to announce I will be a guest on the first of what I hope will be several at the beginning of February. I will be sharing more on that later. In addition to guest podcasting, I am creating online workshops with a friend of mine. These endeavors have made it clear that I need to amp up my marketing game. Marketing, ironically is the field I was in before I had children. Not by choice so much as by default. The pay was good and I had a knack for the work.
I am finding marketing and marketing writing is much easier when it is not focused on yourself. This too is breaking me out of my comfort zone. There will be a shoot with a professional photographer soon, I hope. The scheduled session had to be canceled on her end because of COVID-like symptoms. I’ll need to channel some of my daughter’s confidence to do these, but they are necessary for the endeavors I am pursuing.
As I am going through this process of self care and delving into what I wish to bring forth into the world, I am noticing how freeing it is to release what is no longer serving me in a positive manner. This release opens the door for that “good” stuff to come in that feels true to the soul. I am reminded that the self, and the world we are a part of, is not served by staying small inside the confines of self-doubt and fear. The light comes in and goes out through the open door.
Good luck with opening those new doors, Alethea!
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Thank you, Audrey! 🙂
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Here’s wishing all power to you, Alethea. What I have detected, through your writing, is a strong woman, so you can show us what you are made of, I’m sure! The very best of luck. xx.
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Thank you so much for your support, Joy ❤️
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A wonderful start to the new year. Wishing you all the best in your new endeavours.
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Thank you so much, Darlene ❤️
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Looks like you have a good plan moving forward. Glad you are letting your creative side out. As to self-marketing, I may be the world’s worst marketer 😉 Good luck moving forward!
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Thank you, Trent. Self-marketing is certainly an uncomfortable area for so many of us. No doubt I’ll keep learning more about myself and it through the process…🙂
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Have a wonderful year of exploration and possibilities!
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Thank you, Dorothy! 🙂
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You have a wonderful start to the new year, Alethea. I substituted thirty-plus years ago before getting a full-time teaching job. I know how hard it is. Good for your decision. Since you have published books, it’s a little easier to find a publisher. They like to see the sales records, I found out. Your marketing plan sounds positive. Best wishes to you! 🙂
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Thank you, Miriam. I’m hoping to enjoy the journey as much as possible. 🙂
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You have a good plan, Alethea!
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Thank you!
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You’re welcome, Alethea!
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Kudos Alethea for knowing what is draining and needs to be let go, allowing room for the new to emerge and clarify.
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Thank you, Brad. I started sleeping better as soon as I made the decision. 🙂
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“I need to return to myself.” I have been there. I am there. After 30 years as a helping professional, now retired, I can still drift and need to return to me. So, reading where you are right now in this process is exciting! YES! The best is yet to come!
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Thank you, JoAnna. I hope you find lots of self care this year too. ❤️
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❤
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May your true inner being continue to come into the light, Alethea. 🌞
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Thank you for that beautiful blessing. ❤️
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You’re very welcome. ❤️
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Lovely post.
I especially like: ” I am noticing how freeing it is to release what is no longer serving me in a positive manner. This release opens the door for that “good” stuff to come in that feels true to the soul.”
Best wishes.
Chaya
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Thank you, Chaya. I’m glad you enjoyed it. ✨
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❤ for you, Alethea. It takes courage to let the familiar go and allow new doors to open. ❤
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Thank you, Jane. It does indeed. ❤️
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Hi Aalethea – I think you are making some excellent choices. Last year was a also a bad year for me after the loss of my brother. Self-care is so important, but hard to make time for. I may have mentioned in earlier comments that I was out of the paying workforce for 20 years at home with my children and I found it really hard to reimagine myself. But once the ideas start, there are more after that. Your podcasts and workshops sound like interesting projects – I’m looking forward to hearing more about them. Best wishes to you!
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I’m so sorry you lost your brother this past year. Your navigation back into a career after being out of the paying workforce to raise your children is inspiring. Thank you for your well wishes. ❤️
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I was a substitute teacher for 10+ years…so not worth the headache!!! I feel your pain 🙂
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Wow, that’s a long time! I don’t regret my decision to leave. I was only making $75/day and most days were simply not worth the headache, as you say. There were rare days that were sort-of wonderful, but not enough of them. Thank you for reading and sharing, Grace 🕊
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I agree. I was subbing high school and often in choir or ceramics (arts are a specialty of mine) so it was often fun, but the constant classroom management finally wore me down. And, as you mentioned, the pay is not great. It got me through my master’s program though, and now I teach college…and most of those students want to be there, so a much different experience. Anyhow..great to read your post, and nice to “meet” you! 🙂
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College students must be so much better to teach. Glad you to hear you’ve found it to be rewarding.
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This inspired me to do the same. Focus more and more on things that make me feel aligned.
Thank you!
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I’m glad you found it inspiring. Thank you for visiting my blog.
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